There is a struggle overtaking me recently. It’s the struggle to help support others while creating and shifting in my own journey. A vision of walking a tightrope while a man eating lion circles below waiting for me to lose my balance is what I see.
It isn’t that I don’t want to help people, I do. I want to help everyone. There are many talented writers out there creating awesome, needed content. There are others stepping into ministries sure to have an impact in our community. How do you help them all? My struggle is further compounded by starting several new ventures simultaneously while endeavoring to dig our family out of debt.
The harder I try to stay plugged in, the more defeat settles in. Is it possible to help everyone? How do you choose? Someone will always be disappointed. Add to the fray, the fear those I’ve disappointed, won’t be there when I need support. It’s enough to drive a person to run and hide.
Okay, take a deep breath…focus. It is not my responsibility to save the world and support every person out there.
Several people who’ve worked closely with me say I resist rest. This is difficult to accept because I see others out there seemingly doing it all. They comment on every blog, on nearly every facebook post with heartfelt, real comments and still manage to create their own beautiful work, give back to the community, and take care of their home and family. This brings more condemnation.
With all of this turmoil broiling within, I hear the still, small voice… “Come be with me, and I will give you rest.” What does the “rest” God talks about mean?
This week God supplied a tool to help me set the foundation to move forward without exhausting myself. One of my mentors, Jenny Price, has offered me support by means of a mastermind group. Mastermind with Jenny is a six month process which begins with three goals you choose to work toward. It gives you a support group of like-minded people interested in changing their lives to keep you accountable as you move toward yours.
This process helped my daughter and I increase our business income significantly. It really works!
So this time, my first goal is going to be rest!
If you are struggling with a goal or goals and want support, contact Jenny Price at email@example.com for further information to decide if this may be for you. There is power in accountability!
Stay tuned as I chronicle my journey into rest…
1 Let us therefore fear, lest, a promise being left us of entering into his rest, any of you should seem to come short of it.
2 For unto us was the gospel preached, as well as unto them: but the word preached did not profit them, not being mixed with faith in them that heard it.
3 For we which have believed do enter into rest, as he said, As I have sworn in my wrath, if they shall enter into my rest: although the works were finished from the foundation of the world.
4 For he spake in a certain place of the seventh day on this wise, And God did rest the seventh day from all his works.
5 And in this place again, If they shall enter into my rest.
6 Seeing therefore it remaineth that some must enter therein, and they to whom it was first preached entered not in because of unbelief:
7 Again, he limiteth a certain day, saying in David, To day, after so long a time; as it is said, To day if ye will hear his voice, harden not your hearts.
8 For if Jesus had given them rest, then would he not afterward have spoken of another day.
9 There remaineth therefore a rest to the people of God.
10 For he that is entered into his rest, he also hath ceased from his own works, as God did from his.
11 Let us labour therefore to enter into that rest, lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief.
12 For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.
13 Neither is there any creature that is not manifest in his sight: but all things are naked and opened unto the eyes of him with whom we have to do.
14 Seeing then that we have a great high priest, that is passed into the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our profession.
15 For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.
16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.